Suppose You Grow (2020)

First to the Feast

You were last on my list.
I’ve been throwing fits about following up with what we started.
Every few weeks or so I’m freaking out.
Throw my fist to the top of my car,
screaming to God,
telling him what I think he knows nothing about.

It feels nice to grab a hammer to the brick wall in my mind.
So darling, I suppose that’s why I’m back again this time.

Cause I don’t wanna make you angry.
I don’t need a reason to tell you so.
I don’t wanna fail my family.
I’m avoiding disappointment.
‘Cause I don’t wanna see that movie.
I don’t wanna watch that video.
I know the scene ain’t pretty--
things I believe.

You were first to the feast.
I’ve been waiting weeks,
‘cause I’ve been talking in my sleep.
And every few years or so I flip my shit
‘cause I can’t find the means to quit.
So darling, I suppose that’s it.

So, potion and light for atonement.
Go on, try to get by in the moment.
Is it the pace of the fog that you’re facing now,
or is it part of your sight that’s the culprit?
I was in love with a modern day Maia,
on call for a plundering prize at the pulpit.
I know if I was in medicine
I’d take my fortune and screw on my head again.

Oh, goddamn Hollywood for making me think too much.
Soft round the edges, I’m hot to the touch.
God bless this mess for making me drink too much.

You were next in the row,
and I want you to know that it was good to let this go
‘cause it was making me think too much.
You were quick to the punch,
but we want what we want
and I can’t help the things I don’t
‘cause it was making me hate my guts.

You were first to the feast, and I’ve been waiting weeks.
You were last on my list, and I wasted all my time for this.

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from Suppose You Grow, released August 21, 2020
Words and music by Stagbriar.

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